Not Wanting To Be Found "Wanting"

Today's devotional brought a challenge for me: How disciplined am I and how firm in my faith in Christ am I? Those words are from Colossians 2:5.

My husband and I have been deliberating about what to do with our condo and the decision making process has caused a large amount of stress even after praying for guidance from our Heavenly Father. Part of the stress is due to a lack of patience on my part in awaiting a clear answer to come to both, my husband and I. Another part of the stress is fearing some imagined outcomes. All of this is to say that I simply don't trust God....at least enough.

So, bottom line, when I read the above words, I heard the Holy Spirit asking 'me,' Donna, "how disciplined are you? How FIRM is your FAITH IN CHRIST? Wow. Obviously, if He, the Holy Spirit, is asking, then it must not be very firm or surely not firm enough, or at least not firm enough for me to be at peace about this entire matter.

I need to rest it more on my Heavenly Father's BIG shoulders and trust that He will lead and guide us to the right conclusion--right? Indeed. "He will never leave us nor forsake us."